This collection was born out of a season we never expected to walk through.
It’s a collection that is very near and dear to my heart. Each verse and phrase within Still Held became a quiet source of comfort during one of the hardest seasons of my life.
To tell the story of how this collection came to be, I have to go back a little.
Sage + Light had been a small idea for a while. Josh and I felt a pull to start a Christian apparel brand as we began stepping more fully into our faith—but if I’m honest, I didn’t know where to begin. Trying to come up with ideas felt forced, and I found myself putting it off more than pursuing it.
Around that same time, Josh and I had been on our TTC journey for about a year—a season of waiting.
Then finally, two weeks before Christmas, I found out I was pregnant.
Even though we had been trying for a while, it still felt surreal. I didn’t quite know how to process it yet.
It wasn't long after, we sang It Is Well at church.
I remember standing there, unexpectedly moved to tears. I’m not typically emotional, so I brushed it off at the time—assuming it was just hormones.
But something about that moment stayed with me.
Then, at my ultrasound appointment, everything changed.
I was told I had an anembryonic pregnancy—an early loss where the egg implants but doesn’t fully develop or stops growing.
That was the moment everything shifted.
Sitting in that room, trying to process the news, I realized just how deeply I had longed to be a mom.
And in that same moment, I remembered the song It Is Well.
Looking back now, I don’t believe that moment at church was random.
In a quiet, almost unnoticeable way, God had been preparing my heart—even before I knew I would need it.
Not taking away the pain,
but reminding me, even then, that He would be present in it.
The days and weeks that followed were heavy.
There was a quiet kind of grief—one I didn’t really know how to navigate. It felt different than losing someone you’ve known, because there were no memories to hold onto. It was grieving what could have been. A future.
And in many ways, it felt lonely.
It was in that space that I found myself searching for reminders that God was still near.
And in a way I didn’t expect, this season drew me closer to Him.
Still Held was born right there—in the middle of grief.
In a place I never would have chosen, God began to plant something new. What started as pain slowly became purpose.
I wanted to create something for others walking through similar seasons—something that could give words to what often feels unspoken. A reminder that God doesn’t wait for us to be strong or have it all together.
He meets us in the valley.
In the questions.
In the silence.
And He walks with us through it.
Still Held is a reminder that even in uncertainty, even in loss, even in the quiet—you are not alone.
God is still present.
Still near.
Still holding you.
If you’ve found Sage + Light while walking through a hard season, this is for you.
I pray this can be an encouragement to you—that you would know God sees you, loves you, and holds you in His hands.
You may not see it yet, but He can take what feels broken and use it for good.
He can bring beauty from the ashes.
And He can use your story to be a light for someone else.